days

some days i miss you

most days im fine without you

no day yet has not happened where i did not have at least one thought about you

other days i daydream about what youre thinking and what i can do to make up for my mistakes

some of the other days i am glad you and i never worked out

but most of the other days i just wondered what could have been

and not a day goes by in which i dont think about the mistakes i made. i could list them for you….but man….if i did…then i would hold the record for the longest blog ever written in the Guinness Book of World Records.

so all i can say is…I AM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING. i am truly and genuinely sorry. and yes….i am happy without you. and no, i do not want to be happy. because then that means that i really didnt need you.

overall things have been fine….its been days since we really talked. and even more days since we hung out. i wish days were seconds so time wouldnt go by so slow. im just glad that youre happy….i guess tahts the reason why i can be happy right now. im happy because youre happy, even if your happiness is not the direct result of me. at least i made you happy for a while right? because youre happy,i can be happy. and thats what i actually do need….just for you to be happy. thats all i need and its all i want....