cruthces

these crutches i have, have become my closest friends. theyre always giving me support and helping me. they lift me up so i can walk and push me to keep going faster. they make the pain go away and allow me to live normally. i have such good friends. i dont need to be sad.

i think about my friends. i think about caleb. i think about my family. and i think about God. and i just want to beat myself up. i have been so sad for the past month that u have made my family, my friends, caleb, and God worry about me. i need to shape up...i'll be okay. you know why? because im throwing down those crutches so i can walk on my own. people have been my crutches the day i couldnt stop getting over her. its time for me to put those crutches down. shes happy without me, and thats a fact taht im just going to have to live with.

i have been suffering but with due time it will pass. and suffering makes a man stronger. no matter how bad it is. these months have been loooong and painful but i feel stronger already. im ready for the next battle and what God has in store for me.

my family loves me so much. my friends care about me so much. Caleb looks up to me so much. God is with me so much. i am loved so much and perfectly made. I have no time to be sad. i only have time to be happy and helping others.

good bye crutches. its time you help lift someone else up and carry them.

1 Peter 5:10 " But the God of all grace, ... after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you"