today i had to cancel my plans with my friend kevin because i wanted to hang out iwth a new friend of mine, allen. he went with me to tahoe and hes been teaching me chinese and stuff. hes only gonna be here for a couple more days so it only made sense to give an entire day to him.
hes such a nice guy. but yea. we watched despicable me today! it was pretty good...it was too cute for me though. i was like, wheres the action!?!?!? but yea....this week has been exciting and sad and surprising. started off painfully froma sprained ankle then to a fun recording shoot with kevin, then to the death of my good friend's father, followed by funeral then a surprise trip to lake tahoe and finally a day to hang out with my new friend allen.
i was sad taht i didnt go to youth group today...im kinda scared actually. cuz now that kimmy doesnt wanna talk to me...i have no one that will talk to me at youth group. in the end she was the only one that would ever talk to me and keep me company. it jsut wont feel the same...im scared to go but i want to go. i want to go because of God not because of her. and thats how it was from the beginning. but i know she doesnt want to see me...so maybe i should just stop going...i never really felt accepted there....i wish i was though.
im curious to see what the future has in store for someone like me....i feel usless and stupid.
"For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.
2 Timothy 1:7 (NLT) "
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