to be put in charge of a church of youth. you are ordered to organize it and keep it together. thats the only orders. no adult help. your on your own. you make all this effort to make it good.
you come on a sunday to put it together....but no one shows up. you preach a sermon to an empty seat. you praise and worship with an MP3 playing in the back. no band no nothing and its because the guitarist just didnt want to come to church that day.
i want something better for the church. im tired of this. God. where are you? you put this church in my hands....yet no one is here....
it hurts so bad. my biggest dreams to serve you get crushed once a week. where is everyone? where am i? is my life worht it if i cant even save a single soul? is my life worth it if God can not use me because i am incompetent?
my faith....is the only ting i have left. i hope it never leaves me. there is acutally something that makes me happier then you kimmy...and its seeing a soul get saved. and they commit their life to christ.
im so sad. i was given the repsonsibility to lead a youth group and i keep failing.
i feel so empty. i feel so sad. i feel so cold. i feel so lonely. no one will talk to me....no one will listen. this summer is the worst summer ever. i just want it to end. i just want to be held right now. i just want to be comforted. whats happening to me? i feel so depressed? im worth nothing....nobody wants me.
God where are you? do you still want me?
God wants you bro. And dont feel shame rite now, cuz if you ever read my blog its like a spitting image of this message. But let me assure you bro, God has a plan for your life. And its not your job to get every soul saved, thats God's job, he'll just use you when the time is right. Samuel, your worth the world for God, and you don't even know yet, what he has planned for you. I love you bro
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