ANGRY

I'M so angry right now! I hate myself....kimmy, if you are reading this...i want to let you know. that i dont want to be your boyfriend anymore.I cant even obey one stupid rule. Im the worst boyfriend you could ask for...so hurry up and find a new one. I get angry over stupid reasons and i hurt you today....and i cant say sorry cuz it wont take back what i did. i cant see you again.....if i do, i wont be able to look at you. even if you do forgive me i wont be able to forgive myself. DO I REALLY LOVE YOU!? i should love you enough to control my anger, to control my desires, to control myself. IF i cant even do that, then do i love you!? or are you just like every other girl in my life!? i dont deserve you.....i hate me....i hate what i have done. HOW COULD I GET ANGRY AT YOU LIKE TAHT!? WHEN YOU SAID YOU HATED ME IT MADE ME SO MAD! i know you were just kidding but i took it to heart! i cant stand myself....AAAHHhh.....IM SORRY KIMMyy.........................do me a favor and hate me. i deserve it....i dont know how to be a good boyfriend. ALL YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME IS HELP ME! and i cant even return the favor!!!! i cant even help you with your singing! HOW CAN I REPAY YOU! you wont let me!!! HOW DO I SHOW I LOVE YOU!!! have i not showed it already!!?!?? WHAT DO I DO TO PROVE MY LOVE!!!!! I LOVE YOU! is that not enuff!? I want to sing with you i want to hear you sing. i want you to be honest with me and be comfortable around me...if i cant do taht than im not a good boyfriend. you are too good for me.....WHY DID I GET SO MAD!!??!? im mad at myself for getting mad!!!! KIMMY I HOPE YOU dont read this.....can i still be your boyfriend? Will you let me? i dont know.....i wish i knew. im still angry and i just wanna forget about you but you wont get out of my head. i hate myself for trying to forget you and i hate that my heart wont let me. i dont want to forget you...i wanna be a better boyfriend....BUT HOW!? i am constantly left unsatisfied....i hate taht feeling.... i find it hard to love you! WHY!? i want to love you but its so hard! show me you love me....please.....why didnt you chase after my car when i left your house....i was waiting for you to follow....i miss you already...i hate myself right now. the one thing i got good in my life and i cant even appreiciate it. im so ungrateful and selfish....LORD, bring me peace. I ask for forgiveness....will she give it to me? i dont deserve her forgivness...i dont deserve it.