when i talk to you...its my way of saying i love you.
when i look at you its my way of saying i miss you.
when i love you and do things for you....its my way of saying i still care.
i hope you still care too. i wont stop caring. you know me...im not that kind of person. and now that i think of it...youre not that kind of person either. I'm glad you still care. :D
but i hope we will continue to learn more about each other. everyday...in every way.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
love
i loved you then i forgot
then i forgot how to forget.
thats when i remebered i loved you
i realized you really do mean more to me more then i could ever really imagine. i just couldnt start imagining you until i stopped imagining you for who i wanted you to be. youre like a dream come true. and i mean it. i was so lost....i wish you could find some forgiveness in your heart.
kimmy, youre like make up. when ppl wear make up they look beautiful and so happy. and then all of sudden when they stop wearing make up consistently they look sick and ugly. i stopped wearing you, and now i just feel sick all the time...i miss you.
then i forgot how to forget.
thats when i remebered i loved you
i realized you really do mean more to me more then i could ever really imagine. i just couldnt start imagining you until i stopped imagining you for who i wanted you to be. youre like a dream come true. and i mean it. i was so lost....i wish you could find some forgiveness in your heart.
kimmy, youre like make up. when ppl wear make up they look beautiful and so happy. and then all of sudden when they stop wearing make up consistently they look sick and ugly. i stopped wearing you, and now i just feel sick all the time...i miss you.
wo bu hao
im mad. i wanted to blog...but i prbly will end up regretting everything i say so yea...i wont blog. I hope i cheer up. When im angry... i say things that i dont mean.
Monday, May 10, 2010
DREAMINg
in all my 16 years of life....I have never loved someone or missed someone so much. somethings wrong with me...i swear.HAHA no! i would never swear! jk
but seriously...im dreaming. will she ever notice me? will she still care about me? will she ever want me back? IN MY DREAMS! im dreaming big...but hey. if youre gonna dream...you gotta dream big! or else it aint a dream. thats the difference between what you want and a dream, you can want it all you want but when you actually get it it will be trashed within 6 months, forgotten, nothing, gone! . if you dream it...and when you actually get it....it lasts forever. dont want big.....DREAM BIG!
but seriously...im dreaming. will she ever notice me? will she still care about me? will she ever want me back? IN MY DREAMS! im dreaming big...but hey. if youre gonna dream...you gotta dream big! or else it aint a dream. thats the difference between what you want and a dream, you can want it all you want but when you actually get it it will be trashed within 6 months, forgotten, nothing, gone! . if you dream it...and when you actually get it....it lasts forever. dont want big.....DREAM BIG!
Saturday, May 8, 2010
STUFF
I have been obsessed with magic lately. HAHA i like to impress ppl and blow them away. LAtely I have been studying coin magic and such. I also have been singing a lot too! HAHAHA my family gets annoyed! i begin singing...then they say "STOP SINGING!" then i say, you wanna see a magic trick then? LOL then they say yea! I want to see you disappear! LOL its lots of fun. HAHAHAHAHA
im gonna keep practicing. I also was looking through some videos i got and found one of my old vids when i tried starting an accapella group and it failed pretty badly...i sing rly off key and stuff. And im trying to figure out how to upload vids and pics so this is a test run!
its taking forever to upload!!!! AGGGAHAGGAA.....LOL i sang terribly! HHAHAHAHA good memories though! one i would like to share with you!
im gonna keep practicing. I also was looking through some videos i got and found one of my old vids when i tried starting an accapella group and it failed pretty badly...i sing rly off key and stuff. And im trying to figure out how to upload vids and pics so this is a test run!
its taking forever to upload!!!! AGGGAHAGGAA.....LOL i sang terribly! HHAHAHAHA good memories though! one i would like to share with you!
Friday, May 7, 2010
BLOG
i want to blog right now...but idk wat to blog about. HAHA uhmmm i feel depressed right now but im not. im getting weird mood swings. BUt anyways....i missed SAT class today cuz i didnt feel good. but i wish i went cuz its fun. I have been very angry and sad and happy lately. a whole rainbow of emotions this week! I feel unrelaxed. I hope taht changes next weeek when AP testing is FIANLLY over...i miss my family a lot! i was thinking about them to day.....and they mean the world to me.
i cant wait till junior year is oveR!!!! SO CLOSE but still soooo far.....i wish summer was here! WOOHOooo...! this month is gonna be exciting! i cant wait to see what happens! i got lots to do! JUNIOR YEAR IS HARD! i hope it all pays off
but i have rly bad grades! i have never had such a low GPA.....but its okay! God has a plan for me, but mean while im gonna try harder!
i cant wait till junior year is oveR!!!! SO CLOSE but still soooo far.....i wish summer was here! WOOHOooo...! this month is gonna be exciting! i cant wait to see what happens! i got lots to do! JUNIOR YEAR IS HARD! i hope it all pays off
but i have rly bad grades! i have never had such a low GPA.....but its okay! God has a plan for me, but mean while im gonna try harder!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
PARENTs
doode i havent blogged in a while! but i wanted to blog today about parents. I realized today that i need to be a better son. not because they told me to, but because i want to. Parents, are just like us. they get mad and they have emotions too! they get mad and sad and stuff and they need someone to cheer them up too!!!! Kids, are kinda like their pets. we are kinda like puppies to them when we are babies then we grow into ferocious dogs with rabies when we are teenagers then we become mature. parents need kids! and its our job to be there to support them in everything they do. they take care of us and are responsible for us, should we not repay them? they do so much for us but we wont ever realize it untill we are in their shoes and old and wrinkly. WE need parents just as much as they need us.
Parents need us to cheer them up and put a smile on their face! my dad just put a smile on my face! HAHA he stood up to go to the bathroom and his pants fell down and he tripped!!HAHA hes wearing his old pants from like ten years ago and he lost a lot of weight so it came off. it made me laugh.
Today, my mom was telling me how she cant walk anymore and i got rly sad. she said i need to pray for her and i hope you will pray for her too. she wasnt sad bcuz of the idea she couldnt walk anymore but she was sad that she might not be able to continue the ministry. She was sad she might not be able to pray for ppl and help ppl and that touched me heart. the reason she cant walk in the first place...is cuz all her life all she has been doing is travleing and walking from place to place to pray for ppl and help ppl. and i have wronfully misjudged her the past couple weeks and she has been saying things i have never heard her say b4. and its cuz she is stressed out. she gave me a hug today after i told her i was stressed out and it meant the world to me. i should do that for her sometime and you should too! parents aren't as bad as we think they are, its just we dont rly know much about them so we are scared of them and misjudge them. if we took the time to understand them...then maybe they arent so bad after all.
I'm gonna give more effort to learn a little bit more about mine and help them in anyway possible. i encourage you to do the same, or else when they are gone you're gonna regret it!
take some time right now. imagine your father or mother dying....have you payed your dues? or have all you done is yell at them , run away from them, deny them...and never establish a relationship with them. is that how you want to rememeber your dad and mom? did you want to remember them as someone you hated or someone you loved? your parents are just like you! dont forget it! be happy you have parents or at least one! parents are blessing and kids are blessings to parents! be a blessing.
Parents need us to cheer them up and put a smile on their face! my dad just put a smile on my face! HAHA he stood up to go to the bathroom and his pants fell down and he tripped!!HAHA hes wearing his old pants from like ten years ago and he lost a lot of weight so it came off. it made me laugh.
Today, my mom was telling me how she cant walk anymore and i got rly sad. she said i need to pray for her and i hope you will pray for her too. she wasnt sad bcuz of the idea she couldnt walk anymore but she was sad that she might not be able to continue the ministry. She was sad she might not be able to pray for ppl and help ppl and that touched me heart. the reason she cant walk in the first place...is cuz all her life all she has been doing is travleing and walking from place to place to pray for ppl and help ppl. and i have wronfully misjudged her the past couple weeks and she has been saying things i have never heard her say b4. and its cuz she is stressed out. she gave me a hug today after i told her i was stressed out and it meant the world to me. i should do that for her sometime and you should too! parents aren't as bad as we think they are, its just we dont rly know much about them so we are scared of them and misjudge them. if we took the time to understand them...then maybe they arent so bad after all.
I'm gonna give more effort to learn a little bit more about mine and help them in anyway possible. i encourage you to do the same, or else when they are gone you're gonna regret it!
take some time right now. imagine your father or mother dying....have you payed your dues? or have all you done is yell at them , run away from them, deny them...and never establish a relationship with them. is that how you want to rememeber your dad and mom? did you want to remember them as someone you hated or someone you loved? your parents are just like you! dont forget it! be happy you have parents or at least one! parents are blessing and kids are blessings to parents! be a blessing.
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